Wake up feeling so tired ..went to the office like usual ...dan cam biasa jugak aku tido jer sepanjang perjalanan ker opis.Ngantuk sangat . dah la baby bangun awal hari nih ajak mummy main , mummy ngan mata separuh bukak nih layan la jugak ..pukul 7 dah nak kena siap2 kan isk lagi ..tambah plak isk suka uk uk pepagi cam nih
Kat opis dada rasa sakit sangat n susah nak napas. Lain macam jer rasanya . Cuba gak pegi baring kejap kot kot hilang la sakit tuh ...dah kena 2 kali cam risau jugak . Pegi lah klinik kejap check lah kot ada apa apa ...maklumla aku nih ada irigular heartbeat .
Masuk bilik doktor nasib baik doc pompuan fav aku tuh ...dia check badan aku . Aku bagitau la yg aku sakit sgt dada plus semput semacam ..she just smiled at me..aper ke hal nyer doktor nih lain mcm jer senyum
doc : ok let me look at u (sambil amik suhu badan aku ..then tekan dada)
doc : i think i know why r u having this pain . but let me check ..i will tell u
me :haa ok
doc : how old is ur baby
me : his 5 months
doc : do u know what is postnatal blues? most women had this . ur blood presure is a bit low but theres nothing to worries about . whats bothering u ?
me : nothing doc, i just feel very tired thats all.
doc : i think ur depressed..im to having the same problem when i give birth . sometimes u will cry for no reason ..u feel so down . Sometime this will make u feel exhausted n shortness of breath . i have this postnatal blues after few months and im having it for 2 months
me : Yeah sometimes i feel that but not today ...y am i having this chest pain today
doc : u should take some rest . kay ..talk to ur hubby . ask him to pay more attention to u
aku kuar dgn tanda soal besar atas kepala. Asal doc tuh kata cam tuh ? Am I depressed? I feel ok today ...ermmm aku tertanya 2 . Macam la aku nak sewel . Tapi ada betul gak cakap doc tuh . Since Isk ada i dont have much time for my self . Bukan nyer salah Isk maybe mmy time management tak betul ermm entah la . So many things to do and so little time , im not a superwomen ..i cant stand looking at the dirty cloth and pinggan mangkuk dlm sink ..pastuh mula la cam lipas kudung nak bersih kan
Kira i nih cam superwomen jugak lah , pegi kijer 8.30 till 5.30 . Amik anak kat nursery . Sampai kat umah tak sempat nak salin baju ker mandi ker..terus mandikan anak , salin baju baru , kasik susu . Bila dah breastfeeding tuh 1/2 jam la mummy melakat ngan Isk . Main 2 ngan anak kejap naik atas semayang dulu . turun masak plak . Kalau tak masak sian plak kat adik aku 2 org tuh ...dah masak nak kena kemas dapur ..kutip kain baju utk dibasuh . Angkat kain ..lipat baju sambil tgk 2 kan anak . mesin dah siap kena pegi jemur plak ...baru nak duduk anak plak nak tido ...adooi penat sih . Naik atas ker bilik dah pukul 12 lebeh ...tido la krokh krohk Kul 3 4 pagi anak bangun nak susu ...kul 6 lebeh dah nak kena bangun ...
cam tuh la rutin harian ..tapi tak kurus 2 gaks . Lemak tepu gamaknyer
